What happens now?

I'm getting married next week.

  The time has come for me to finally make a choice.

  Don't get me wrong, I have no intention of running away and leaving my poor boyfriend at the altar (I'm quite fond of him really!) but I need to decide what happens now.

  I want it all! I want a home of my own, I want to play around in the graden and try to plant things while my dad visits and tuts with disapproval. I want to have children and have cosy nights in and trashy tv nights curled up on the sofa with my husband. But...

  I want to travel! I want long, expensive holidays where each trip is an adventure. I want to visit the arctic and walk along sun drenched beaches. I want to feel the thrill of adrenaline and visit foreign lands. I want more suitcases than sofas ;)

  The thing is unless I suddenly turn into a millionaire or develope superman flying/time turning powers I really can't have both. Oh I know getting married doesn't mean I stop living, of course not but it does mean more bills, spending savings on furniture and dealing with the when "when do we try for kids?" questions.

              What happens now?